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Friday, October 18, 2013

Music and Videos

I've got a new page for you to look at, it's the music page. I'm going to periodically post music that I like and I think others might like as well. Let me know what you think.

Also I'll be periodically putting more good uplifting videos into the Uplifting video Folder

Singing Out
Matthew John Barry

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

A long time coming...

It seems like the longer I wait to write something on here, the more desire I have to actually write something. That is probably the reason why I don't write every week and have a lot of time between posts, but hopefully you still enjoy this even though the posts are scarce and far in-between. Usually I have a purpose for writing but unfortunately for you or maybe fortunately for you, I don't have a purpose for writing. I just want to sit down and write. Get something out and get my mind going for the day. Some good ol' verbal vomit for you.

Something that I like doing is writing poems. They aren't that good but I still like doing it. Sometimes I get a great idea for a poem and I can just sit down and write for pages on that one theme. Other times it comes over the space of many days. I wish it was something I could control, something that I could just sit down and spill over the page but usually it takes time.

It makes me think about some of my desires, like to start a band. Get some music started. I would love to be able to play on a stage at least once in my life. To be able to get up in front of a group of people and show them something original that I created. That is a dream, That is something that I would love to be able to do constantly. Then I remember about the time and effort that goes into that and the time I don't really have.

We all are different and have our own little hobbies and things that we like to do and that is the way we were created. Could you imagine what life would be like if we were all the same. If we all wanted to become doctors or actors. Like wouldn't be so full of opportunity. There would be many unhappy people because somebody needs to be a policeman, someone needs to be a truck driver. Some also needs to be an electrician. If everyone wanted to be a doctor then that whole world would be unhappy except for the select few who were able to become doctors.

Remember that you are different and different is good. It's something that we need. We all have our talents that will help our community and world. The only thing that matters is that you love what you are doing and that what you do helps those around you.

I hope you enjoyed my verbal vomit for the day or maybe the month.

Promise that I'll post a poem I wrote a couple weeks ago on here.

Singing Out
Matthew John Barry

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

It's been a while...

... since i've written on here.

Wow, almost 3 months maybe 4 months since i've written on this blog. Sorry about that. This next week I've got a new post that I'm going to post. Come back after a week and I'll have something for you to read.

Have a Great Week

Signing Out
Matthew John Barry

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Unknown to Known to Unknown

In a sea of faces
It's amazing to say
with all the unfamiliarity
There is one that stand out.

Solid and alone, clarity in unknown

Who would of known that
one that is known so vague
would be the one that seems to beam.

Seemingly bright, unknown that is known

But after the volunteered time is spent
the Known returns to the unknown again.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Happy Mother's Day

What does the word mother mean?
Is it a word to mean someone who
Gave birth and helped you into this life?
How does the world give place to
Something as sacred as a mother?
How can a place so wicked be the
Growing grounds of a gift so sacred
That even devils tremble when a new one is born.
A gift so precious that Satan does his best
To undermine with thoughts and pressure
From the outside world the sacred nature
Of a Mother.
What defines a mother and who can explain
The feeling that a mother has and gives to all
Those that they encounter

O Mother, Dear Mother. I Love You.

Monday, April 22, 2013

Change, Renewal and Growth

Things change, it's true. No lies there. It's inevitable, impossible to control. I used to be 1 or 2 years old not caring what really happened to me. I used to be 4 or 5 thinking about what school must be like. I used to be 7 thinking about what baptism really meant for me. I used to be 11 thinking about what new responsibilities I would receive and what Middle School really was. I used to be 13 thinking about even more responsibilities and how High School would feel like. I used to be 15 thinking about even more responsibilities and playing with the thought that I might drive a car. I used to be 17 thinking about College. I used to be 18 thinking about Graduation and a Mission. I used to be 20 thinking about how it would be to return back home. Now I'm 21 and look at what has changed. I have grown, I'm different. I'm not that 4 year old or that 20 year old either. I'm a 21 year old thinking about how to finish my freshman year in college. Soon even that will change.

Many things come and go. I remember when I'd play pokemon or Yu-Gi-Oh. I remember when Captain Planet was my favorite hero. I remember when I'd wake up at 5 am just to listen to the song "I'm Blue" by Eiffel 65. I remember when I'd drive around at might with my friends singing our favorite tunes as loud as possible. But things have changed. People have moved on, not necessarily forgotten but realize that the past won't always be present. The past is things that have happened. Things that have been done. We cannot change the past. But just because it is unchangeable doesn't mean that it defines us.

As I mentioned in my last post, I had some cuts and bruises on my body. To be quiet frank, I rubbed my nipples raw while running and they were bleeding. I had several cuts on my chest from running shirtless. I have a lot of cuts around my knees from crawling, climbing and hitting things. I have a couple of cuts on my arms from doing the same thing. These things have happened. There are some reminders that they are there. But this doesn't mean that I'm going to have these things forever. My nipples have healed, the cuts on my chest have lost the scabs and are a light pink skin. I can't find all the cuts and scratches on my legs and arms. They have just gone away. My skin has renewed itself. It is taking the things that are wrong and making them right. Just as those physical scrapes have healed, our spiritual scrapes can heal as well. It takes time and vigilance. Just as a physical wound needs tending, a spiritual wound needs constant awareness.

So remember that we can change. Things can heal both physically and spiritually. We must grow to become like our heavenly father.

Signing Out
Matthew John Barry

Monday, April 15, 2013

Reaching Our Potential

This past week was so much fun. Literally there was probably no possible way that you could of had more fun than I had this last week. I doubt you had a better time than me. I am a champion. I am a King. I am a "Tough Mudder"!!! Literally, I am a Tough Mudder. If you have no idea what that is, let me tell you.

Tough Mudder is an amazing race where you race against the course. You don't race against others, you don't even worry about if people are going straight past you. All you worry about is getting to the end. To let you know exactly what a Tough Mudder is, I'll explain how the race was, give you the Tough Mudder Pledge and talk about some amazing stuff that I learned from this.

First off, I know I said that I'd explain the race but to explain the race I first need to give the pledge because the pledge will explain the purpose of the race.

As a Tough Mudder I pledge that...
- I understand that the Tough Mudder is not a race but a challenge.
- I put Teamwork and Camaraderie before my course time.
- I do not whine - Kids whine
- I help my fellow Mudders complete the course
- I overcome all fears

This is the Tough Mudder pledge. It is so true. Now think on this as I explain the course and what I learned.

You start off with everyone in a big group. There is a starting ceremony that gets you pumped up for the race. They explain about the race and where it came from. They give a salute to the our armed forces. They have you give the Tough Mudder pledge. They tell you to help your team which is literally everyone that you meet on the course. Then you start. Everyone right at once. Start running. You get about a half mile in and there are 2 walls that you need to crawl over. It's slanted and so you need a little bit of help to get up and over. You don't care about who's around you and who's doing what. You only think about "I need to get over that wall" and while you are waiting to go over the first wall, you notice that people are having a hard time, so you help push them up and over. Then you start to go over and notice that it's a little harder than you thought it would be and while you go over, you feel hands from below pushing you up and over. Then you do the next wall the same way.

Start running again and then next obstacle is one that tests your mental strength. You need to jump in water that is kept around freezing so around 30 degrees. You need to jump in and swim about 2 feet, go under a board so you're under the water for literally 5 seconds. But those 5 seconds feel like 5 hours as you are freezing cold. Then your head comes above the water as you swim another 5 feet and get out of this water. Freezing cold, you still go. You don't stop, Don't ever stop. You jump over fire into another water pool and climb out. Run, do some monkey bars over water, Run, Crawl under barbed wire, Run, Jump over more walls, Run, Do some rock climbing stuff, Run, Carry one of your teammates for a quarter mile, Run, Crawl through dirt trenches, Run, crawl through electric shock wires, Run, jump off a 15 ft. platform, Run, Run through an obstacle with live wires hanging down to shock you.

I think you get the gist of things. There are a couple more obstacles that I didn't even talk about. I didn't even mention but by the end you have ran about 10-12 miles and have done 20-22 obstacles. But you don't realize what you have done. As I left, I was left will only the memories of cuts and bruises I received but it all still feels like a dream. Did I just do that? Did that really just happen? These were the questions that went through my head as we drove back to Utah. I'm glad I have some cuts to remind me what I did. I have a shirt and a headband that show that I finished... But did I really? It feels like a dream. I'm to the point that I already want to do another one so that I can prove to myself that it wasn't a dream. It actually did happen. I'm already planning a trip in 2014 to do another one.

The whole race is amazing. The challenge of the course is amazing. The people were amazing. I feel amazing. I feel accomplished, I feel great.

I spent 2 and a half hours running this race and now that I think back on it, there are so many things that I can learn.

1. Turn Around

- Everest, one of the obstacles I was most scared for. It's a 15 ft high wall that is basically a half pipe. You need to run up and grab the edge and pull yourself up. The slope is slippery and can be very difficult to get up. There are people that almost make it but cant reach the top so they slip all the way down again only to try again. Well, as i went up, It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be, Of course I had hands helping me up. A friend, someone reached down and helped me up as I ran up. I got up and had the feeling that because I was helped, I needed to stay and help. So I got on my stomach and tried to be the hands reaching down to help a friend up. As you help others up, you get a feeling that you were an angel, you helped someone and this is a better feeling than finishing the race could ever be.

-  Mud Mile, it's an obstacle where you jump in water 3 feet deep and then you need to climb over mud walls that are about 3 feet above the water level. Alone this would of been impossible. Think about it, you are dead tired, and then you're in water up to your stomach or chest and then you need to climb out of the water over a mud wall only to end up in water again. Then you repeat the process about 8 times. Alone, I'd never do it. But there were always people there. People would stand in the water and push you up while people would stay on top of the mud wall and pull you up. Then as you get on top of the mud wall, you turn around and help a couple people up and while they turn around to help people up, you jump into the next pool of water and push people up until it's your turn to get pushed and pulled up. There was always hands to either push you up or pull you up.

From these things and others, I realized that in our lives we also have people around us who are always pushing us up or pulling us up. They are always there. We might not see them and sometimes we might not feel them but if we stop and think about it, they are always there. Angels in our lives who will always help us. As one person leaves, another will always take their place. As we are helped, we must turn around and help those around us. Then we may become Angels in others lives. Turn around and help another.

2. Limits

- Running really isn't my strength, it's probably one of my weaknesses. Before this race the furthest I have ever ran was about 5 miles, and that was probably more than 4 years ago. I can run maybe 2 or 3 miles comfortably but after that I'm a Dead Man. Deader than a door nail. I honestly didn't know if I could run 10 - 12 miles. I didn't know if it was even possible for me. As I ran the Tough Mudder, I only thought "Take one more step" "Just one more" "Reach that point" and there were also those around me saying "You can do it" "Keep Going" and even better there are those who don't speak but show with their actions their help as they run next to you or are always near you. This is what honestly got me through 10 - 12 miles. It wasn't my physical strength but the encouraging words and actions of those around me.

Words and actions are so important. Words can change what a person thinks about the world around them and about themselves. If someone is told that they have a horrible voice and that they shouldn't sing. That they shouldn't try, then they wont even try. They probably will do their best to keep their voice quiet when they are around others. They wont even try to reach their potential with their voice. If someone is told constantly that they shouldn't even try in sports because they have no "skill" then they will never try because they are always being pushed down.

But on the other hand if someone is told that they can reach the impossible, if someone is told that they can do it no matter what odds. If people received positive and constructive feedback for something that they do instead of destructive and negative feedback, think about the things that they will do. Things they will accomplish because instead of someone saying "no you can't" they can say "Yes you can and here is how you can be better". Instead of saying "You are the worst" they can say "you can do this, that part wasn't the best but here is how you can improve on it". Think about the difference this would make in our world if people decided to be a positive force and a help. It just takes a change of words and phrases or maybe just a little bit of time that will help others improve.

3. Remember the End

- As I did all these things it was always in the back of my mind how I would feel at the end. I would do all these hard things and would get hurt. Bruises and scratches. Cuts and wounds. Pain and difficulty. But I knew the accomplishment that I would feel when I reached the end. The feeling that I still feel. I did it. It feels like a dream but those bruises and scratches are what remind me of what I have done and what I have overcome. It reminds me that I can do hard things. Hard things are just there to help us. Because of those things I have ended up a better person.

We all need to remember our end goal. What we want to reach in the end. What is our goal? Where do you want to go? How do you want to feel? All of these questions all depend on what you do. What you pass through and what your end goal it effect what you will do. It's a continuous process. While I ran, my goal was to make it to the end, and because of this end goal I did better on the obstacles in the race and because I did the obstacles in the race, I got closer to my end goal.

If there was anything that I learned that I would want you to remember is turn around and reach out, be an Angel, Don't limit yourself or others and remember where you're going. Be positive. Look towards your end goal. Live life. Do what you know is right. The is no limit on what you can do.

Signing Out
Matthew John Barry

Friday, April 12, 2013

"That's Life"

When I started this blog about 2 or 3 years ago, I started it just because I wanted to start a blog and it seemed like all my friends had a blog and I wanted to be like them. It was a pretty interesting thing. I wrote random stuff and things that really make no sense what-so-ever. As the years passed, I received a mission call and thought "hey, I can use the blog that I already created for people to keep up with me on the mission." So I put my mom as a publisher and had her put all my letters on this blog so that people could see what happened to me.

Since I've been back I haven't really written anything. Maybe a couple of small things but nothing constant. I could say that I'd promise to write more but to be honest I'll write something now and here in a couple months I'll remember again that I have a blogspot and think "Hey, it'd be cool if I actually wrote something." Then I do.

Lately the thoughts that have been in my head are along the lines of life. Life. "to life, to life, l'chaim". Life is an interesting thing. It's like a roller coaster. Sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down. It always changes. People change, Seasons change, even Earth changes. I like to think that there are two things that are going to be constant in our life. One is that "the only thing constant is change." The other comes from my Christian background. Another thing that is constant is God. So while we change constantly and go up and down on a roller coaster, God doesn't. He's always there. He's "The same yesterday, today and forever." I find it nice to think that while I'm changing there is at least one thing that I can look to that is constant. Some stable spot in my life.

So I want to let anyone know that is reading this that God is always there. He has promised that if you do his will, you will be happy. A true happiness will come into your life, not a fake every once in a while happiness. Because he is a constant God, then if we do his will we will have a constant joy. I'm not saying that we won't have trials and problems. I'm not saying that sad things wont happen. I'm saying that through those hard times we can have a joy that is constant and will help us through.

Don't give up.
Endure to the End.

Signing Out
Matthew John Barry